A lot of things have been happening and as usual there are lessons to be learnt. School's been quite busy and all lately and well yeah sometimes it takes a toll on you. Two things I want to talk about today haha may seem quite little on my agenda list but I think there's quite a bit I want to say so brace yourselves.

1) CT Period

First examinations in junior college, a very new experience for me. Not only with regards to the level of difficulty of the exams but also the people whom I'm sitting the exam with. It's no longer just my RG batchmates; they only make up 1/3 of the school population now.

So there comes along CT prep. One whole month of holidays just isn't enough, but I guess I'm saying this partially because I could have done more with my time in some instances to make studying more fruitful. See, one lesson learnt right over there.

And then there comes the time right before the paper when you're anxious. One thing I really need to do is to keep my iman on a high so as to calm myself down. Because when I panic for a paper (and this goes for everyone as well), I can't think straight.

And then there's the results. Didn't do very well. Kind of expected it but definitely still disappointing. You know it's funny how people say that it's okay to do badly in the first CTs because that's the point at which everyone starts off from. I don't know but to me from this entire experience that statement seems to be false.

Of course at this point in time there will be people who don't do so well or do OK. But then there are those who are able to do really well. I'm not comparing myself to them and yes I agree they are different from me so our capabilities wouldn't be the same. But the fact that there are people who can do really well makes me wonder why many people say that it's normal to do badly for the first CTs (and also makes me wonder if they can do it, so can I!). Our experiences may differ and you may disagree but from where I am right now many people are doing well based on their results.

I was initially upset with my performance but after a bit of reflecting I think what is best now is that I kick things up a notch, stay positive and grow from this experience. I know where my weak points are and I know what I did wrong so at least I've learnt something which hopefully would enable me to make things better the next exam. Now just to keep the fire burning.

And also was telling a friend about how I wouldn't really tell others about how everyone does badly in the first CTs because I feel that for some people it's a sort of comfort but when reality comes it hits you hard. (FYI I didn't take that notion in that manner but yup as in I think it's something that affects you anyway? I'm not so sure how to put it in words but I hope you get what I mean.)

There will always be people who do well and that's who you should look up to. Never look down, always look up. It IS okay to do badly for now but what is important is that you gave more than a 100% effort so that you have something to be proud of. And no matter which point of the 'grade ladder' you are at right now, there is no where but up.

And maybe right now something that concerns many of us is that we may get offloaded from our respective CCA duties and all. It IS sad especially if you have the passion for what you are doing and people expect things out of you. But whether we get offloaded or not I think we should take it as a blessing ah in each case. Like let's say if you don't get offloaded, it gives you a reason to work even harder to juggle both your responsibilities and manage your time better so that you are able to better prepare for promos and at the same time do your duty to the best of your ability. If you do get offloaded, then it's time for you to really prove yourself. Use ALL your available time fruitfully because it is a blessing in a way. You may not be able to contribute as much as you wanted to to your CCA board, but yeah these things happen for a reason and if you do know you need it, make full use of it so that you can get back on board after scoring well in the next exams.

I want to end off this segment by saying Allah does not burden a person beyond his or her capacity. And this doesn't only apply to whether you are able to juggle many things. It's also about how you're able to accept failure, get back up and carry on. So even if your duties get revoked, I guess there is a positive light to it. Just have to look for it even harder. There is always some form of berkat (blessing) behind these things. If you get what I mean.

2) Ramadhan

I've been looking forward to this month for a while now and it's finally coming this weekend! I've got a few simple goals in mind for this coming Ramadhan and I guess the same goes for many other people. Though we may not be able to do much extra spiritually because we're all busy with school and all, we've to also remember that the simplest of our actions (yes, even if it is a smile) is for the sake of Allah and ultimately that means the simplest (and yet most difficult haha) thing we can do is to just make sure we're all good this Ramadhan.

And one thing that I really want to talk about here. And this doesn't only go out to you guys but it is also a huge reminder for ourselves. As you can see many things start in Ramadhan, people take things up a notch to go the extra mile to do good things during the holy month. However we must remember that whatever we do within the month doesn't stay within the month. We do more things during this month because we know that it reaps amazing blessings from Allah. But these things also reap blessings on normal days as well so there isn't any excuse for us to stop once fasting is over, because evidently we're able to do these good things so why not do them on normal days. So yup. One thing I'd hope to see in myself is maintaining whatever I implement personally in Ramadhan even after the month is over.



Yup at this moment that is all I have to say for now, insya'Allah school will be fine and that Ramadhan will be amazing. Ameen. :)

A lot of things have been happening and as usual there are lessons to be learnt. School's been quite busy and all lately and well yeah sometimes it takes a toll on you. Two things I want to talk about today haha may seem quite little on my agenda list but I think there's quite a bit I want to say so brace yourselves.

1) CT Period

First examinations in junior college, a very new experience for me. Not only with regards to the level of difficulty of the exams but also the people whom I'm sitting the exam with. It's no longer just my RG batchmates; they only make up 1/3 of the school population now.

So there comes along CT prep. One whole month of holidays just isn't enough, but I guess I'm saying this partially because I could have done more with my time in some instances to make studying more fruitful. See, one lesson learnt right over there.

And then there comes the time right before the paper when you're anxious. One thing I really need to do is to keep my iman on a high so as to calm myself down. Because when I panic for a paper (and this goes for everyone as well), I can't think straight.

And then there's the results. Didn't do very well. Kind of expected it but definitely still disappointing. You know it's funny how people say that it's okay to do badly in the first CTs because that's the point at which everyone starts off from. I don't know but to me from this entire experience that statement seems to be false.

Of course at this point in time there will be people who don't do so well or do OK. But then there are those who are able to do really well. I'm not comparing myself to them and yes I agree they are different from me so our capabilities wouldn't be the same. But the fact that there are people who can do really well makes me wonder why many people say that it's normal to do badly for the first CTs (and also makes me wonder if they can do it, so can I!). Our experiences may differ and you may disagree but from where I am right now many people are doing well based on their results.

I was initially upset with my performance but after a bit of reflecting I think what is best now is that I kick things up a notch, stay positive and grow from this experience. I know where my weak points are and I know what I did wrong so at least I've learnt something which hopefully would enable me to make things better the next exam. Now just to keep the fire burning.

And also was telling a friend about how I wouldn't really tell others about how everyone does badly in the first CTs because I feel that for some people it's a sort of comfort but when reality comes it hits you hard. (FYI I didn't take that notion in that manner but yup as in I think it's something that affects you anyway? I'm not so sure how to put it in words but I hope you get what I mean.)

There will always be people who do well and that's who you should look up to. Never look down, always look up. It IS okay to do badly for now but what is important is that you gave more than a 100% effort so that you have something to be proud of. And no matter which point of the 'grade ladder' you are at right now, there is no where but up.

And maybe right now something that concerns many of us is that we may get offloaded from our respective CCA duties and all. It IS sad especially if you have the passion for what you are doing and people expect things out of you. But whether we get offloaded or not I think we should take it as a blessing ah in each case. Like let's say if you don't get offloaded, it gives you a reason to work even harder to juggle both your responsibilities and manage your time better so that you are able to better prepare for promos and at the same time do your duty to the best of your ability. If you do get offloaded, then it's time for you to really prove yourself. Use ALL your available time fruitfully because it is a blessing in a way. You may not be able to contribute as much as you wanted to to your CCA board, but yeah these things happen for a reason and if you do know you need it, make full use of it so that you can get back on board after scoring well in the next exams.

I want to end off this segment by saying Allah does not burden a person beyond his or her capacity. And this doesn't only apply to whether you are able to juggle many things. It's also about how you're able to accept failure, get back up and carry on. So even if your duties get revoked, I guess there is a positive light to it. Just have to look for it even harder. There is always some form of berkat (blessing) behind these things. If you get what I mean.

2) Ramadhan

I've been looking forward to this month for a while now and it's finally coming this weekend! I've got a few simple goals in mind for this coming Ramadhan and I guess the same goes for many other people. Though we may not be able to do much extra spiritually because we're all busy with school and all, we've to also remember that the simplest of our actions (yes, even if it is a smile) is for the sake of Allah and ultimately that means the simplest (and yet most difficult haha) thing we can do is to just make sure we're all good this Ramadhan.

And one thing that I really want to talk about here. And this doesn't only go out to you guys but it is also a huge reminder for ourselves. As you can see many things start in Ramadhan, people take things up a notch to go the extra mile to do good things during the holy month. However we must remember that whatever we do within the month doesn't stay within the month. We do more things during this month because we know that it reaps amazing blessings from Allah. But these things also reap blessings on normal days as well so there isn't any excuse for us to stop once fasting is over, because evidently we're able to do these good things so why not do them on normal days. So yup. One thing I'd hope to see in myself is maintaining whatever I implement personally in Ramadhan even after the month is over.



Yup at this moment that is all I have to say for now, insya'Allah school will be fine and that Ramadhan will be amazing. Ameen. :)