Hi there! It's been a while, and a lot of things have happened during that "a while". There are a few things that I want to write about so let's see how long I take to write this post. Haha for your benefit if you don't actually want to read the whole thing here's what I'm going to write about slowly:

1) Faith
2) Making choices
3) What I want to do with my life
4) CCAL Camp
5) CT Preps

1) Faith



Faith has always been something that I feel a sense of belonging to. To me it's one of the basic things in life because it is something that potentially makes you a stronger person.

I have seen myself grow through my religious beliefs. It is important to not only practice the religion, but also to enjoy it. And this can be achieved by understanding the stories and reasons behind why some things are the way they are. For instance, the 5 daily prayers that Muslims commit to serve the purpose as quiet time between a person and God, to surrender to Him, to gain strength through prayer, to be calm and have faith. It's a blessing that God granted upon us because He knows that we need it to sustain ourselves. And one thing that I really admire is people who take such things like this seriously so much so that they would do it anywhere as long as they can find a suitable quiet area where they wouldn't be a hindrance to anyone. These are the kind of people are exemplary because you can actually see that in their minds, prayer is always a priority no matter where they are, and they plan their day around these 5 prayers so much so that they don't miss any.

Faith is also something that constantly reminds me that I've always got to change for the better. There is always something that can be improved in a person, and trying to become a better person is an integral part of faith.

Your perception and attitudes towards your faith (be it whatever religion you belong to) kind of determines how close you are to it. Because whatever religion is written in your birth certificate or your identification card or any other document is just a label. To be of that faith you have to live it, breathe it. If you have a really positive outlook towards your faith and you're always striving to understand more with relation to it, then yeah well I think you'll feel this invisible magnet that is drawing you towards it. I'm not sure how to describe that feeling but yeah, when that kind of feeling comes, it's really amazing.

Okay I think my thoughts up there are a bit jumbled up and I didn't do much justice to the whole concept of faith (because it encompasses many things) but I shall end it off here by saying that faith is your ultimate pillar of support, something that makes you a stronger person. Iman helps in defining who you are/want to be (at least for me).

2) Making choices

Just the sound of it makes me a bit anxious because I've had my fair share of making wrong decisions. And I guess that is inevitable. And somehow at some point in time there may be a moment whereby you start questioning yourself about something you seemed so sure of before.

To me what's important is that even if you think you've made a decision wrongly, you should still do whatever you can to make the best out of it because whatever it is, you should try to make the experience as beneficial as possible. Because it's something that you chose, and how good your  experience is depends on how you make it out to be.

Maybe it's the way we look at things. Like how maybe we're seeing this 'making choices' thing as something whereby we're compromising something instead of looking at it in a more positive light whereby we're choosing a different opportunity so as to be able to grow in a certain way.

Yup but whatever it is, it all boils down to perspective.

3) What I want to do with my life

Everyone at some point in time asks themselves this question: What am I going to do with my life? For me I'm still not sure of what career I'd want to pursue at this moment, but I don't know, I think this question goes beyond that. I know there is something I want to be.

An inspiration. I guess it sounds kind of cliche but I think I'll just go with it. Because being an inspiration in itself is a blessing. To know that in some way or another, you've brought about good into peoples' lives around you, that you've taught them something that they would want to build up on.

But before you become an inspiration to others you have to be an inspiration to yourself, you know? Yup, still trying to work on that at the moment!

4) CCAL Camp

Last week was CCAL Camp at Bintan. First time to Indonesia actually (hahaha sigh), and we were camping at a resort. Just a personal opinion before I go on, it's really a potential honeymoon holiday destination, the resort I mean. Everything is so relaxed there, and it's like you're not in a rush to go to places, and all. Just a note!

Hahaha okay, generally I'm not very fond of camps but I think like other ones, this came with its own few blessings, first of which is the company I was with. My group A1, (hi guys I don't think you know my blog exists but it's okay you're still cool) was full of funny, helpful, lovely people. We may not have been as loud as other groups but that wasn't very important to us. We all gelled quite well with each other and there were quite a few funny and embarrassing moments here and there. They made camp much more bearable for me! And my tent mates are really too nice to be true.

And then there's my homies. Spent quite a bit of time with Isdiy (and Dana comes sometimes too) during the camp, sitting by the shores and just talking. It was really good having to be able to have such time with her, because we don't usually have much opportunity to talk during school period. And haha thanks for being my solat buddy. Never going to forget the time we woke up for subuh and the toilet was filled with a swarm of big red insects (still don't know what they exactly are). Love you loads sayang :)

This camp was a bit of a test for me in some ways like endurance, tolerance, openness to change and that sort of thing. And alhamdulillah, it went quite well. Missing Bintan and its beautifully amazing (Masya'Allah) starry nights. Just to side track for a bit, I love the stars. This ayat in the Quran really made me appreciate it even more.



:) Amazing miracles.

5) CT Prep

Okay now for the last thing I want to talk about for now. CTs are coming up. First ever in junior college. Mostly I'm feeling anxious but trying to keep a positive outlook of things.

Back in RG, what I remember significantly that got me through every end of year examination period in upper sec was a mind of optimism and constant pushing. Like you've got to keep telling yourself that you can do it, trust in Allah, He will help you. But you need to help yourself first. Put in effort wherever possible and just give it your best shot.

Okay, congratulations you got to the end of this really long post. It's probably going to be a while before I do up another one, this took up about 2.5 days. Hahaha. But yup I hope that the points I did want to bring across were done so effectively but if they weren't heh sorry sometimes I can't exactly put my thoughts in words properly but nonetheless hope you enjoyed it. :)

Hi there! It's been a while, and a lot of things have happened during that "a while". There are a few things that I want to write about so let's see how long I take to write this post. Haha for your benefit if you don't actually want to read the whole thing here's what I'm going to write about slowly:

1) Faith
2) Making choices
3) What I want to do with my life
4) CCAL Camp
5) CT Preps

1) Faith



Faith has always been something that I feel a sense of belonging to. To me it's one of the basic things in life because it is something that potentially makes you a stronger person.

I have seen myself grow through my religious beliefs. It is important to not only practice the religion, but also to enjoy it. And this can be achieved by understanding the stories and reasons behind why some things are the way they are. For instance, the 5 daily prayers that Muslims commit to serve the purpose as quiet time between a person and God, to surrender to Him, to gain strength through prayer, to be calm and have faith. It's a blessing that God granted upon us because He knows that we need it to sustain ourselves. And one thing that I really admire is people who take such things like this seriously so much so that they would do it anywhere as long as they can find a suitable quiet area where they wouldn't be a hindrance to anyone. These are the kind of people are exemplary because you can actually see that in their minds, prayer is always a priority no matter where they are, and they plan their day around these 5 prayers so much so that they don't miss any.

Faith is also something that constantly reminds me that I've always got to change for the better. There is always something that can be improved in a person, and trying to become a better person is an integral part of faith.

Your perception and attitudes towards your faith (be it whatever religion you belong to) kind of determines how close you are to it. Because whatever religion is written in your birth certificate or your identification card or any other document is just a label. To be of that faith you have to live it, breathe it. If you have a really positive outlook towards your faith and you're always striving to understand more with relation to it, then yeah well I think you'll feel this invisible magnet that is drawing you towards it. I'm not sure how to describe that feeling but yeah, when that kind of feeling comes, it's really amazing.

Okay I think my thoughts up there are a bit jumbled up and I didn't do much justice to the whole concept of faith (because it encompasses many things) but I shall end it off here by saying that faith is your ultimate pillar of support, something that makes you a stronger person. Iman helps in defining who you are/want to be (at least for me).

2) Making choices

Just the sound of it makes me a bit anxious because I've had my fair share of making wrong decisions. And I guess that is inevitable. And somehow at some point in time there may be a moment whereby you start questioning yourself about something you seemed so sure of before.

To me what's important is that even if you think you've made a decision wrongly, you should still do whatever you can to make the best out of it because whatever it is, you should try to make the experience as beneficial as possible. Because it's something that you chose, and how good your  experience is depends on how you make it out to be.

Maybe it's the way we look at things. Like how maybe we're seeing this 'making choices' thing as something whereby we're compromising something instead of looking at it in a more positive light whereby we're choosing a different opportunity so as to be able to grow in a certain way.

Yup but whatever it is, it all boils down to perspective.

3) What I want to do with my life

Everyone at some point in time asks themselves this question: What am I going to do with my life? For me I'm still not sure of what career I'd want to pursue at this moment, but I don't know, I think this question goes beyond that. I know there is something I want to be.

An inspiration. I guess it sounds kind of cliche but I think I'll just go with it. Because being an inspiration in itself is a blessing. To know that in some way or another, you've brought about good into peoples' lives around you, that you've taught them something that they would want to build up on.

But before you become an inspiration to others you have to be an inspiration to yourself, you know? Yup, still trying to work on that at the moment!

4) CCAL Camp

Last week was CCAL Camp at Bintan. First time to Indonesia actually (hahaha sigh), and we were camping at a resort. Just a personal opinion before I go on, it's really a potential honeymoon holiday destination, the resort I mean. Everything is so relaxed there, and it's like you're not in a rush to go to places, and all. Just a note!

Hahaha okay, generally I'm not very fond of camps but I think like other ones, this came with its own few blessings, first of which is the company I was with. My group A1, (hi guys I don't think you know my blog exists but it's okay you're still cool) was full of funny, helpful, lovely people. We may not have been as loud as other groups but that wasn't very important to us. We all gelled quite well with each other and there were quite a few funny and embarrassing moments here and there. They made camp much more bearable for me! And my tent mates are really too nice to be true.

And then there's my homies. Spent quite a bit of time with Isdiy (and Dana comes sometimes too) during the camp, sitting by the shores and just talking. It was really good having to be able to have such time with her, because we don't usually have much opportunity to talk during school period. And haha thanks for being my solat buddy. Never going to forget the time we woke up for subuh and the toilet was filled with a swarm of big red insects (still don't know what they exactly are). Love you loads sayang :)

This camp was a bit of a test for me in some ways like endurance, tolerance, openness to change and that sort of thing. And alhamdulillah, it went quite well. Missing Bintan and its beautifully amazing (Masya'Allah) starry nights. Just to side track for a bit, I love the stars. This ayat in the Quran really made me appreciate it even more.



:) Amazing miracles.

5) CT Prep

Okay now for the last thing I want to talk about for now. CTs are coming up. First ever in junior college. Mostly I'm feeling anxious but trying to keep a positive outlook of things.

Back in RG, what I remember significantly that got me through every end of year examination period in upper sec was a mind of optimism and constant pushing. Like you've got to keep telling yourself that you can do it, trust in Allah, He will help you. But you need to help yourself first. Put in effort wherever possible and just give it your best shot.

Okay, congratulations you got to the end of this really long post. It's probably going to be a while before I do up another one, this took up about 2.5 days. Hahaha. But yup I hope that the points I did want to bring across were done so effectively but if they weren't heh sorry sometimes I can't exactly put my thoughts in words properly but nonetheless hope you enjoyed it. :)